I think this image came from the Hopeologie website.
It's a brand new year. Again. Thank you, Jesus. BRING IT.
New Year's Eve makes me cry. I prefer staying at home, listening to cute boy bands and Taylor Swift party it up before the ball drops, dancing around in my pajamas. Then the ball drops, and I find myself reflecting, praying, and crying. The crying is never a sad cry, rather a reflective and thankful cry. I find myself feeling blessed. though a little beat up and bruised. Who isn't after an entire year of life? If you are the exception, please call, and tell me what your secret is. I find that by the time the calendar resets itself for another 365 days, those bruises and tough hits have morphed into personal growth, lessons, wisdom, and grit. I think about all the things I got right and all the things I got wrong. I've made courageous, brave decsions, and I've made poor, impulsive, and careless decisions. But the beauty is that I am making them and living. Worse than making a bad decision is staying stuck and stagnant, never progressing. Even if a poor decision leads to a setback, at least you know what route not to take next time. That's wisdom. I love Lysa Terkeurst's quote, "If you desire to please God with the decision you make and afterward it proves to be a mistake, it's an error not an end."
As the ball drops in Times Square, I can feel the grace dropping, too. It reminds me to note the grace and mercy we receive daily at the stroke of midnight: A new day, a new chance, a frest start.
I think of my counseling sessions, books I've read, experiences I've lived, and wisdom attained from family and friends. There are so many lessons I plan on taking into the New Year, a few of which are included below.
- It's OK to reward people with my respect and not my relationship. It really is OK. Really.
- Instead of doing all I can to make my story play out, be open to the story Jesus has for me. His story. His dream. I want to trust His plans more than my dreams. I want to live each moment out fully and deeply instead of writing a script and screen play for my future. And while I've already been so imperfect in this area in 2015, I'm learning from my mistakes faster.
- Following your heart sounds great amidst the pages of a Nicholas Sparks novel, but in real life, it can be dangerous territory. I think your head and heart need to be aligned. If it feels right at the heart level, but the logical part of you is screaming no, it's probably a no. If a situation is logical and seems great on paper, but the heart isn't feeling it, that may be a no as well. This may not apply to all of life's scenarios, but for the most part, I think it does. I'm still learning about wise decision making.
- I am worthy, because I am a child of God; nothing more, nothing less. My mama calls or texts me every day to remind me. In turn, I tell my teenage girls how worthy they are. And then I tell my mama she is worthy too, and that she's perfect to me...just plain perfect.
Patience and Story are my words for the year. I'm keeping the word brave too, because I cannot be patient and trust my story to Jesus without courage. Patience is a fruit of the spirit that I wish was sold at Harris Teeter. I'd probably just move into the produce section and camp out. For my entire life, despite the fact that I loathe camping. But I know patience isn't something that can be acquired that easily and conveniently. I am OK with that, because easy never produces the work in me that I really need and desire in the first place.
On a lighter note, here are a few of my favorite things this year:
My new church! Y'all. I LOVE this place. Hope Chapel is the real deal. You walk in, and kids are playing and laughing. People love on you. Hope welcomes and invites the imperfect. I decided to join and make it my church family.
Meyer's cleaning products. Lavendar and Basil bless me.
Netflix: Hart of Dixie, Gilmore Girls, and Friday Night Lights
Can I please just move to Bluebell, Alabama and date Wade? Wait, I can't. He and Zoe are having a baby, now.
Summer-This is the first year I have ever loved summer! I had the best time spending countless hours on the little league baseball fields. I'm ready for cotton sundresses and rainbows already!
Beer. I love beer now. It just happened out of no where! Red Oak is my favorite.
I LOVE decorating for the holidays!
Happy New Year! May you be surprised by wonderful things this year!