These girls. Words escape me in my humble attempt to articulate the adoration and respect I have for their sweet selves. Walking in the door to a Leading Ladies meeting and becoming vulnerable is brave. They do not even realize this is brave, and my mission is to show them and open their eyes to how they are being courageous in their every day. I want them to see what brave looks like in the messy and in the smooth sailing. I want to dissect a fancy word like vulnerability and lead them into a different way of seeing themselves and the world around them.
I was talking to a friend yesterday about how I may have ventured down the psychiatry/MD path had I not been afraid and insecure. I felt initial shame in confessing this but quickly stepped away from the accuser that shame ultimately is. Fear may have interfered with various life paths of mine, but because of fear's crippling affects and the lessons I've learned, I'm repurposing all of those what ifs and regrets and making something lovely. And really, it is God repurposing through me rather than me doing the repurposing. I'm just being brave enough to allow him to do his thing. If one girl pushes past fear, doubt, and insecurity and makes a bold choice based on WHO she is rather than HOW she feels, than praise God for my experiences or lack thereof.
Here is a quick picture gallery of what we've been doing since my last post. Note that even teachers are jumping in on the "I Am Already Amazing" train! LOVE IT. One of my girls even made the paper...Look at her sweet leading lady self go! I don't have children, but if this is a glimpse of how I will feel about them, Lord help me. I don't know if my heart can contain that kind of love!
We have been learning about significant women who have made bold choices throughout history; Women making change when it was counter cultural to do so. We have also worked on identifying our strengths and skills. This was a challenging task for them, as they were quick to identify who they are not and what they can't do. And that's OK. We are working on changing our patterns of thought. In turn, our new thoughts will become new behavior. My purpose is not for them to think they are good at everything. I want them to be aware of their weaknesses and limitations and have a healthy respect for those as well. As human beings doing life together, the beauty is in our differences and uniqueness and in the ability to partner and do life with those who may be good at something we are not. This brings about a healthy balance of confidence and humilty. This combination is required to get things done well: Authentic servant leadership, teamwork, and a people over process mindset.
My cup runneth over. I swear...