It is almost midnight, and I am lying in bed just having finished watching a Youtube video of Priscilla Shirer speaking. She is one of my favorite Christian speakers. It is almost morning again, and I am a weary tired, the kind of tired where sleep is just too simple of a solution. Instead of lying in bed begging sleep to assuage my tired, I knew I needed something to assuage my soul; The very part of me that is experiencing the real weary. I am thankful that sleep is not the cure all for a weary soul. It's Jesus.
She spoke for an hour. Lulu snored away, and I took notes on my Iphone. I'm a notetaking, highlighting fool. Always have been.
She asked the audience, "How different would we act and respond to life if we truly believed God is NEAR. All the time. What would change with that level of "God awareness" and that level of God in the details? What would I change? How would my life look?
I would choose truth over feelings, knowing that pain and joy can co-exist. Fear, while present, would not steer my life. I would trust his unseen hand, knowing that while I have no idea what tomorrow holds or why yesterday or that thing years ago happened, He is all up in my business and has no intention of butting out. I would unclinch my fists that are so tightly gripped around my dreams and hopes that my knuckles are turning purple.
I want to be that kind of GOD AWARE. Would that make us perfect or less of a sinner? No way. If anything it would lighten our load, because through Jesus, there is freedom from whatever happened 10 minutes ago. Being more God aware would equip us with the courage to let that thing go, no matter how ugly or minor it was.
Towards the conclusion of her speech, she told the audience of a scripture she prayed before her feet hit the floor: Romans 12:1. She encouraged everyone to pray it each morning. It's a good verse to memorize, too. Stoplights are great for scripture memory, by the way.
To pray each morning, as soon as our eyes open, to be a LIVING SACRIFICE for God and to make us more God aware would have to be life changing; Not because it sounds good, but because He said it would be. It's inviting God in to our day and in to our weary souls, not to impress him, but to be in relationship with Him. It's Him doing the work in us; Not us wearing ourselves out to be good for Him. That's a miracle y'all. That's a love story that Hollywood will never come close to replicating, and it is at our very fingertips. Every single minute of every single day. On that note, my soul feels much less weary, and sleep is sounding quite delightful.